Your saws are sharpened for the competition. You are ready to face and outpace anyone who would dare cross your paths. Yes, your adrenaline is pumping almost non-stop everyday; there ain’t no mountain too high to climb. You must win. There is no other choice.
But why? Why the mad rush to be on top. Hasn’t it dawned on you yet that every time you win, you make somebody else cry? Yes, winners celebrate; losers drown in their tears. So we say, “sport lang.” Losers end as the necessary collateral damage in the battles of life.
Admit it: that fierce competitive snarl is only the face of your inner fears. Would you claw your way up front if there are so many seats waiting to be filled up? Will you be nervous standing in line if you know that the food is over abundant? You are just afraid. Fear is that nagging emptiness within and the insecurity of not filling up that vacuum in our spirits.
You were born to be a hero, my Champion. You were not created to fight for your meager portion and scramble for your little corner. That is for the beasts. Do not be afraid. Life is on your side. There is enough, more than enough.
Choose to be happy instead. Happiness is not a set of ripe conditions, but a personal choice. A rich man could be happy, so too does a poor neighbor. A married person could enjoy the bliss of companionship, so does the single person cherish her personal freedom. Being first could be exhilarating, so does being last so fulfilling. Decide to be brave. Defeat and despair are not in your veins. You were created for a miracle life. And you can make the miracles happen.
But first things first. Do not clobber that thirst for genuine greatness in your heart. It comes with peace and joy. You don’t have to outrun others, nor conquer every street of life. You only need to confront yourself and decide to rid your heart of the nagging baggage: your un-necessary wants, your superfluous treasures, your hardened unforgivables, your painful hurts, your pathetic behaviors, your un-attended unlovables. These feed your fears of living.
Meekness is the strength of honesty with one’s self. So make your lists. This could be very embarrassing. But you need to do it. Absolutely. Articulating your hidden denials is the first solid step of facing up to your fears. Do it now, not tomorrow. You should have done this yesterday.
Help me create in you a new heart that is open to love, my love.