Many times in our life journey we’ve felt alone, helpless, and thought God is very far away. In those moments, we felt the desperation, and thought of giving up on our faith. In the First Reading, the people through the Prophet Habakkuk gave a desperate prayer for help, asking God, ‘How long, O LORD? I cry for help but you do not listen!’ God’s response is very re-assuring then, as it is now, ‘For the vision still has its time, presses on to fulfillment, and will not disappoint; if it delays, wait for it, it will surely come, it will not be late’. (Hab. 1:2-3, 2:2-4)
St. Teresa of Calcutta modelled this persevering faith day by day throughout her life. Her day starts in communion with Jesus in the Eucharist and then went out, rosary in hand, to find and serve Him in ‘the unwanted, the unloved, the uncared for.’ Unknown to many, this great woman also experienced a deep, painful and abiding feeling of being separated from God, even rejected by Him, along with an ‘ever-increasing longing for His love.’ She called her inner experience, ‘the darkness.’ While she was feeling desperate and lonely, Mother Teresa continued her work for the poor, undisturbed by the feeling of ‘darkness’ she was experiencing. This experience led her into an ever more profound union with God. (Vatican.va)
In the Gospel, Jesus speaks about the servant doing his duty after ‘plowing or tending sheep in the field’. The Lord reminds us that discipleship has obligations. It demands our obedience. St. Paul’s tells in his Letter to Timothy to ‘… bear your share of hardship for the Gospel with the strength that comes from God.’
Let our feelings drive us more to pursue what we are tasked to accomplish for God. Let us remember that ‘God did not give us a spirit of cowardice but rather of power and love and self-control.’ (2 Tim. 1: 7)
Faith then is not about feeling, it is about doing.
‘If today you hear his voice, harden not your hearts.’ (Ps. 95: 7)